addtions to rambles of an enquiring mind.....which shud have been the title of the last post...i think

so here we are...back again writing stuffff.....while skimming of from work:D, .......actually not skimming off just taking a break so as to get my thoughts back in order..........this blogging thingie that we have goin here is real good.........better if we net access at any point of the day.......cause if we have to say something we just have to log on and type.......for the world to read. much better than keeping a diary cause the purpose here is get others to read it. have been follwing my friend merc's posts ......she does write ok for a half tam gal......not too many yamssss and yennns..... anyways i was asked to buck and posts as she is getting ahead in the number of posts.

....have had a question in my mind for quite sometime... why do we keep on wanting more....as in more knowledge,.....more wealth....more happiness.. why cant we be happy with what we have.....one cud say more bluntly is why cant we sit on our laurels......or the more pessimistic wud say.....why is their change....why cant we remain still.

mystics and philosophers wud say that it is the nature of the universe. the universe keeps on changing and will keep on doin so....so who are we to defy the universal edict of changing.
but i ask ....isnt it tiring goin thru change all our lives......i know i am too young to be saying this....all u guys wud be goin on as to how lazy i am....and me asking this question shows how much of a sloth i am.

well all i ask is this...cant we get some respite in this world. its like u r in this rat race and u just dont have time to urself. if u do take time out then u r considered a no good fool and forever derided in the presence of more "successful" people for not being like them.

i know change is inevitable but cant we work at our own pace. yesi know this is the age of earnig ur first million at the age of 10...becoming a has been by 23 and retiring at the age of 26...but still

what happened to the time where u cud leave home at 16........start ur education at 21 and so on................

nowadays u just dont have time............thats our excuse....but still life is so fucking hectic that u just endup running around all day...............what happened to growing from within....but no that doesnt happen anymore. people talk abt creativity but that too is now just what i wud call minute wonders. no one now has the time and the energy to make something really worthwhile. life has become too commercialised cause of which we enamoured of this materialistic lifestyle have given up on personal growth.

I think this is y most of us feel something is missing from our life . sadly most of us bury that small voice and just carry on with our life the one we have been leading so far and what i wud call proceeding to our doom.

i sincerely hope it doesnt happen. i know i am painting a very drastic picture.....but believe me its there. all u have to do is look at how many people are trying new age stuff....stuff that is actually very old just has been packaged in a new avatar nothing more....
that is enough to tell us that something is really wrong with us. instead of forever speeding up why cant be slow down...take time to smell the flowers along the way....and somehow realise that winning the race is not so important anymore but how we run the race too. sometimes one shud just take a break from the rat race and smell the flowers along the way.........

this aint an excuse for all those who are lazy(me being a part of them....though i wud categorically belong to the class of procrastinators better......but lazy wud suffice to)................whati wrote above is just a feeling........as i studied hard thru school.........and thru college and by the time my masters came up u cud say i was tired of studying................so u cud say i took a break........................hardly studied for the next 2 years...........all this resulted in me being left behind and my pals all landing the cushy seats in grad schools abroad. i keep tellling myself that though i missed out on goin there with them i completely didnt missout. yes i took a break cause i was tired of continuously studying...but i was also searching for something........something that wud make my life living worth its while.................still havent found it though......dont know y.....
.,i still plan to go on looking but it looks like i wont be able to live my life the way i want to mostly cause the purse strings are controlled by someone else and not by me. well i do have hopes and ambitions but i also want to get there in my own time not go running there and miss out on life. actually i really dont know where i am headed........so just now hoping its somewhere good and i dont end up regretting it when i get there.

just for the record this is a true rambling post cause when u ramble u start from somewhere and end up god knows where else (explaing for those u who dont know much english...doubt there are too many of those.....and if there were they wudnt be reading this blog in the first place. )
anyways better stop this rambling for now.....sorry merc cant be as coherent as u.....maybe its cause the beer i had yesterday afternoon is having its effect now i dont know........so i will stop for now or else this post wud never end...

so readers by for now.................and yes i too dont understand my train of thought i just flow with it

bbye

swapnil