dont know what to put up.........so another rambling post

hey everyone...................well all those who read the blog and didnt comment on it............shame on u all ...........well not actually shame on u but pls do comment................i dont mind begging too...........joking.............well again not begging but a humble request to pls leave comments.................real helpful for us writers u know.

its been some 5 days now since the last post.......got the verification for my passport done............celebrated dassera.......well actually ever since i've gone agnostic its been my family celebrating and not me...............which means i celebrate the festival by proxy. have finally gotten down to work...........after taking close to 3 days off............as in i did very little work most of the time.... i've been slacking off. i have gotten back to work.............feels real good u know when u actually get into the flow of work.....cause then u feel u r doin something ...........the toughest part is starting off......once u get started just go on till the end................cause atleast for me the work gets done.................any break taken is like a death knell cause it potentially ......well it sets me up to more slacking off..and getting back to work gets tougher...........like i am facing now...........i have quite a bit of coding work to do but cant get started again..............which is y i am updating my blog so that i cud clear my mind.

dont know if u all have heard harry belafonte.....he's nice ..........well its calypso music but its nice.
especially the song Man smart,woman Smarter. pretty sarcastic song.........have to thank my friend merc though......for introducing me to paul simon's lyrics........as in i have heard simon and garfunkel but never paid attention to what they were singing. preety good songs...........actually u cud call them poems set to music.............kinda like bob dylan. floyd to writesome lovely songs.....just the prob is that they are depressing....kinda bring out the reality and that hurts quite a bit. still nothing like a dose of truth to get u awake and moving.

all those who are hoping that this is gonna be a short post like merc last one is gonna be real disappointed cause i really do feel rambling for some time.u know i just cant seem to understand why people love to dictate to others how on shud live his life. i know parents are expected to.....but i still feel that the kids have some freedom to decide atleast in some fields...........like i have a prob with my parents forcing me to pray, see i have no problem per se with any of the gods up there. just that i ave sorta given up on religion and dont feel like goin back...atleast in the near future. cant say anything abt the future though....but still one shud be allowed to choose....hate this new social phenomenon....where in u have to be public with ur beliefs..............u know RSS raj...........real fucked up u know.

havent gone home since two days now...........actually am all smelly ........but dont u all worry..............am thinking of having a bath soon...........just cant decide when.
its a real pain having one when u are living in the dorms.....at home no probs...but here in the dorms get bored. hmmmmmmmmm garfunkel........nice music.....u all shud listen if u havent,,,,,and do read the lyrics is u do ever get the chance...get to read some nice poetry.

god its so fucking boring today.cant get work started now.....plus i have nothing to write here.............so i really dont know what to do........guess i'll stop for now........cant write any more


so u all can heave a sigh of relief and give ur thanks to god for this blog entry is done

swapnil

addtions to rambles of an enquiring mind.....which shud have been the title of the last post...i think

so here we are...back again writing stuffff.....while skimming of from work:D, .......actually not skimming off just taking a break so as to get my thoughts back in order..........this blogging thingie that we have goin here is real good.........better if we net access at any point of the day.......cause if we have to say something we just have to log on and type.......for the world to read. much better than keeping a diary cause the purpose here is get others to read it. have been follwing my friend merc's posts ......she does write ok for a half tam gal......not too many yamssss and yennns..... anyways i was asked to buck and posts as she is getting ahead in the number of posts.

....have had a question in my mind for quite sometime... why do we keep on wanting more....as in more knowledge,.....more wealth....more happiness.. why cant we be happy with what we have.....one cud say more bluntly is why cant we sit on our laurels......or the more pessimistic wud say.....why is their change....why cant we remain still.

mystics and philosophers wud say that it is the nature of the universe. the universe keeps on changing and will keep on doin so....so who are we to defy the universal edict of changing.
but i ask ....isnt it tiring goin thru change all our lives......i know i am too young to be saying this....all u guys wud be goin on as to how lazy i am....and me asking this question shows how much of a sloth i am.

well all i ask is this...cant we get some respite in this world. its like u r in this rat race and u just dont have time to urself. if u do take time out then u r considered a no good fool and forever derided in the presence of more "successful" people for not being like them.

i know change is inevitable but cant we work at our own pace. yesi know this is the age of earnig ur first million at the age of 10...becoming a has been by 23 and retiring at the age of 26...but still

what happened to the time where u cud leave home at 16........start ur education at 21 and so on................

nowadays u just dont have time............thats our excuse....but still life is so fucking hectic that u just endup running around all day...............what happened to growing from within....but no that doesnt happen anymore. people talk abt creativity but that too is now just what i wud call minute wonders. no one now has the time and the energy to make something really worthwhile. life has become too commercialised cause of which we enamoured of this materialistic lifestyle have given up on personal growth.

I think this is y most of us feel something is missing from our life . sadly most of us bury that small voice and just carry on with our life the one we have been leading so far and what i wud call proceeding to our doom.

i sincerely hope it doesnt happen. i know i am painting a very drastic picture.....but believe me its there. all u have to do is look at how many people are trying new age stuff....stuff that is actually very old just has been packaged in a new avatar nothing more....
that is enough to tell us that something is really wrong with us. instead of forever speeding up why cant be slow down...take time to smell the flowers along the way....and somehow realise that winning the race is not so important anymore but how we run the race too. sometimes one shud just take a break from the rat race and smell the flowers along the way.........

this aint an excuse for all those who are lazy(me being a part of them....though i wud categorically belong to the class of procrastinators better......but lazy wud suffice to)................whati wrote above is just a feeling........as i studied hard thru school.........and thru college and by the time my masters came up u cud say i was tired of studying................so u cud say i took a break........................hardly studied for the next 2 years...........all this resulted in me being left behind and my pals all landing the cushy seats in grad schools abroad. i keep tellling myself that though i missed out on goin there with them i completely didnt missout. yes i took a break cause i was tired of continuously studying...but i was also searching for something........something that wud make my life living worth its while.................still havent found it though......dont know y.....
.,i still plan to go on looking but it looks like i wont be able to live my life the way i want to mostly cause the purse strings are controlled by someone else and not by me. well i do have hopes and ambitions but i also want to get there in my own time not go running there and miss out on life. actually i really dont know where i am headed........so just now hoping its somewhere good and i dont end up regretting it when i get there.

just for the record this is a true rambling post cause when u ramble u start from somewhere and end up god knows where else (explaing for those u who dont know much english...doubt there are too many of those.....and if there were they wudnt be reading this blog in the first place. )
anyways better stop this rambling for now.....sorry merc cant be as coherent as u.....maybe its cause the beer i had yesterday afternoon is having its effect now i dont know........so i will stop for now or else this post wud never end...

so readers by for now.................and yes i too dont understand my train of thought i just flow with it

bbye

swapnil

cant think of anything...so lets call it my second entry

so, my second one...............hmm i actually havent decided whether to use this a some one wud use a diary.............cause i see many use it like that or else a place where i just post my views..

forget it........as someone once said stop worrying and start writing(dont remember who it was or if this was actually said ....must have been me anyways) so as i was saying..but what was i saying ................oh forget it

so blog entry 2 : this is the year 2004 ...it's the 18 sunrise in the 10th months of the year and this is captain jawkar speaking(i just loooove the sound of that ..........does that sound gay..................if it does i assure i am definitely not...no offence to gays but i am hetero cent percent).
have just had fights with my mom......a major bust up........my pals here go that parents are the greatest people on this planet....that maybe but right now they r a real pain in my ass............. just cant seem to do anything right. that is further compounded by the fact that my younger bro is the one who has a steady job and i still have to ask my mom for pocket money...........rampant jealousy here. my sibs are jealous cause i get to move out and enjoy limitless freedom. what they forget is that i get this at the age of 23. how is it justified that they get it now when they r much younger. but nooooooooo they to have to get it. i hate younger sibs. sometimes wish i was an only child. less noise. cause i love silence. and plus who ever decided to amke those hindo soap operas shud be murdered in the most painful way. cmon those must be the most pathetic serials on the planet...and the junta here is even more give up. they actually sit up and watch the shit. just cant fucking believe it. here u come from work all tired out hoping to relax at home but noooooo. u have to sit thru the shit called KKusum and the jassi. gawd so pathetic these serial are(i am really harping on the same point) and then uske baad tv bandh. no more tv. as in we dont have any choice. we have to sit and watch the shit. have finally got my GRE preparation on track now.....just finished 4 wordlist in 2 days. will have to up the ante though.....if i plan to finish the wordlist atleast twice ( i hope.........but i know its a tall order to fulfill) so anyways i'll stop herebefroe this becomes a full fledged rant..............dont feel like writing much just rant and rant.........but that is for boring friends......will bore u bolg readers in time...jjust not now.

anyways signing off for now

swapnil

the Intro

hello guys and fellow readers...........

just made a blog ,........finally have succumbed to the temptation of making u all readers suffer thru my day to day activities............which actually include counting the tiles on the bathroom floor......and many such invigorating activities. Trust me guys i aint joking.....its a truly fun activity.u all shud try it. especially when have those small chips on the floor. u really dont know when the time goes.......from this u all must have guessed that my ideal guy to whom i look up to is jon arbuckle(for alll u ignorant assholes that is the guy from garfield...such a cool guy....just knows how to live life) anyways have just discovered that u cant fold a piece of paper more than 7 times.....believe me its true.....the max is 7 no matter how thin the paper is. just cant get to the 8th. that is how i concluded it. aint i smart......anyways let me know how this blog entry goes

bbye